Sounds like a great movie or maybe a blockbuster book, doesn’t it? Actually, it’s what happens when a Ford Windstar tries to go up a mountain and the front seal on the transmission goes out. As the smoke pours out the back, we pull over and start to wonder what in the world is going on. I open the hood and saw flames. What a moment! In that brief split second, my mind was able to process so many things — explosions, panic, desperation, lots of money leaving my checking AND savings account! I didn’t realize how many things the mind can contemplate in just a brief moment. I’m still feeling that awful KNOT in my chest just thinking about it again. It’s just a van, right? It’s just money, right? All replaceable, right? A year from now, we’ll be laughing about it, right? Well, it’s not a year from now. We need the van, and money pays bills!! Do you detect some pessimism in my writing? Why do we let “things” bother us so much? It’s taken two days to try and relax and not worry about it. I’m still worrying about it — just less. Honestly, I think God is trying to tell me to detach from the world AND attach to Him — stop being so self-sufficient and be more God-dependent. Believe me, you can either make that a daily part of your life or let God send a trial to remind you.
God, I heard — CLEARLY. I am now LISTENING. You have my attention. Your child is listening with both ears!
I’ve included pictures at the link below at my flickr website. It’s the view from the top of the mountain where our cabin is. When I took them, again, I was reminded, I am NOT in control. There are bigger things than my little pitty party.